A couple weeks ago, our computer died. And I admit, I freaked out a little. Because I really like our computer. Because I really love facebook and I love seeing what everybody is doing and hearing what everybody is thinking and I love new information and I love reading my favorite blogs and I love my email and I love listening to Pandora. So, when my computer died, I was thinking that I would lose touch with people and I wouldn’t get to interact with “grown-ups” during the day and I would get depressed.
But, no worries…we had given Bubby a really old laptop that he could turn on and off whenever he wanted to, so when my laptop stopped working, I just took Bubby’s laptop away from him. And I had a nice little chat with him to inform him that his laptop would be off limits for a little while because Mommy mostly needed it more than him. He wasn’t exactly thrilled. He threw a fit everytime he saw me on it. But kids need to learn that life isn’t fair and they need to learn to share and so I felt good about helping him learn those valuable life lessons. So, I took over the laptop. It was slow. I could only type one word per minute. And I could only see like four status updates per hour. But, that’s okay. It was good enough, at least till our computer got fixed.
But, the other day I think Bubby had enough. He snuck into our bedroom and I’m not entirely sure what happened, but the next time I went to get on his computer, it was dead. And there was no reviving it. He kept pointing at the computer saying, “Watch movie…nooooo….broken!” I think he had put a CD in it. I’m not sure which CD is missing, but it’s not coming out.
So, the last few days I didn’t have a computer. No email. No facebook. No Pandora. Until today…thanks to a nice feller at the office who fixed our laptop for us. And you know what? I’ve had the most peaceful few days that I’ve had in a long time. I think it’s because I haven’t been as distracted. I had no idea how distracted I had become. So, now that I have my computer back, I want to make some changes. I don’t want to depend on this thing to bring me happiness. I don’t want this thing to get in the way of me being fully present with my kids and Brent. (Sigh.) I don’t know how I’m going to do it, but I’m gonna do it, with the Lord’s help and a bit of accountability. Life is just too short to live distracted. It’s important how I use this day. And it seems to be the little time wasters that take the most away. Okay, gotta go. I’ve been on here long enough.
Thanks for listening.
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