How I’m Blessing My Baby (Before I Know Their Name)

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When I found out I was expecting a fourth child, (and even though we were planning and hoping for another little one) I still groaned. I groaned because I don’t like having a big belly. I just don’t like the way I look or feel, at all, with a big-o belly.

A couple weeks went by, and every time I looked in the mirror, I felt disappointed. Disappointed in myself for never losing the weight from the second kiddo. And somehow I let that disappointment turn into regret for this new life.

There’s something in our culture that seeps into our thought process, without us being aware that it’s happening. It’s this notion that children are an inconvenience. An unwanted burden. It pervades our society and even when we don’t want to buy into it, even when we know better, somehow we still let it soak in.

So, when it dawned on me–how I was actually thinking about this new little life–I stopped myself in my tracks. Then I did something a little weird, perhaps even outlandish, but something that healed my thoughts and bonded me to this precious one.

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I put my hand on the bottom of my tummy, right about where you can hear the heartbeat when you first go to the doctor, and I blessed my babe.

I said things like this, “Right now, precious little one, I just want you to know that you are loved and accepted and wanted. I’m sorry for letting my disappointment in myself carry over to you. I’ll stretch and carry you and do what it takes to be a safe place for you to grow, because this is what a momma does. I bless you now with hope, and peace, and life and nourishment and all that you need to become. I love you, little heart. I will be your home.”

This is how I am blessing my child, long before I know his or her name.

Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out;
    you formed me in my mother’s womb.
I thank you, High God—you’re breathtaking!
    Body and soul, I am marvelously made!
    I worship in adoration—what a creation!
You know me inside and out,
    you know every bone in my body;
You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit,
    how I was sculpted from nothing into something.
Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth;
    all the stages of my life were spread out before you,
The days of my life all prepared
    before I’d even lived one day. (Psalm 139:13-16) (The Message)

6 Comments

  1. by Erin on May 31, 2016  5:45 pm Reply

    Congratulations Maggie! I feel the exact same things....My husband and I are speaking of number four and Im still uncomfortable and disappointed in myself for not losing the baby weight of the last. I have even considered what might I have to give up or wait longer on if we add a fourth child to this chaotic home. But I am reminded nothing nothing nothing is more important or precious than following God's plan and mothering those he has entrusted me. The other things can wait. I do pray that I can become a bit more comfortable in my clothing soon, but am thankful for this potential opportunity. Blessings and prayers to you and your new little one, hubby, and older three.

    • by Maggie on June 1, 2016  3:20 pm Reply

      Awe, Erin. Praying for you today. May the Lord anchor your hearts in Him and give you wisdom and lots and lots of peace as you trust Him. Thank you for these thoughts. Bless you!

  2. by Heather Foran on May 31, 2016  6:12 pm Reply

    Congratulations Paulus family! You are so beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing TRUTH!!

    • by Maggie on June 1, 2016  3:19 pm Reply

      Thank you, Heather! Bless you!!!

  3. by Kate on May 31, 2016  9:12 pm Reply

    Maggie,
    Blessings and congratulations to you and your family. Wee ones are truly gifts from God and yours are blessed to have you.

    • by Maggie on June 1, 2016  3:19 pm Reply

      Thank you so much, dear Kate!

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